It's Been A Long Week

So lately death has been very dominant. Many deaths, friends, friends family, pets, acquaintances, even television characters have been dying. When I see people in pain because they've lost there loved ones; it hurts. But I keep referring to a quote I once heard; that there's a difference in pain from ones that choice to leave you, and ones that don't. Everybody that lost someone to death knows that their loved ones, well they loved them, and vice versa. But so many people, so many friends in my life have chose to leave me. So much family, and it hurts. Knowing that you are willing to fight for someone that left a long time ago. It breaks you even more than when they first left.

"All I gotta say is I've been wrong": Time doesn't heal the pain. And life, doesn't go on. It drags on, dragging your heart along with it.

"I'm finally feeling like it's ok to break into a thousand pieces, no one can replace": No matter how hard you try, no one can replace the person you've lost. They may be able to fill the void for awhile, but it'll come back, and when it does it'll break you just as easily as it did before.

"Everyone around me is disappearing": I have no one left. Everybody is gone. Even the people that are "here"; my mom, don't know, they can't even begin to know...

"I'm finally ready to be here": The last few lines in the song are wrong, I'm not ready to be here... I just hope... what little hope I have left, that I can be ready... eventually. I do know one thing, I'm ready to meet my heavenly father...