For the past few days I have been in the lowest of all places. Depression has really being working it's way into the deepest parts of me. I am normally a MASTER at putting on my mask, but I have probably bite the heads off of so many people in the past few days.
I had no one to turn to, and even now, I really don't. Not someone who can even begin to understand how I'm feeling or what I'm going through. But yesterday, after I attempted to get my "best friends" attention, I was feeling even worse. (Not having a best friend to be there for you can do that.) At this point I had given up, I really wanted to talk to SOMEONE who I knew would at least give one little care in the world. So, that left two very special girls who have been there for me through thick and thin; Jackie Keeney and Sarah Heinemann. I decided to go to Sarah, she had once told me that she wanted to help me, plus I knew Jackie was having her own hard time.
Sarah is a blessing. When I went to a group home she took the time to write/type me a 10+ page letter. She kept in contact with me, and when I came home to visit, she would make sure she saw me, somehow. When I have been in a depressed state, this girl has picked me up. I knew that if I turned to her, I would get some sort of relief, to say the least.
When I turned to her, she cared, she gave me advice, and she made me feel proud of myself for about 2.5 seconds, which is a HUGE deal. I needed someone to be there for me, and she was. I will never forget that. When no one else helped me, she did. And I am grateful to have her in my life.
So Sarah, I have one thing to look forward to this morning, and that is knowing that if I need someone, I have a friend like you to help me in my deepest states of depression.
Thank you. I love you.
XOXO
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