I still have nobody to be there for me, everybody has disappeared, but this has helped me to slowly, and by slowly I mean snail "speed", realize that maybe the reason I can't let the people who try to be there for me be there is, because I'm not comfortable with being the only one, besides God, that is there for me. I need to be able to wake up in the morning and say, "I'm alone physically, but I am never truely alone. As long as God is for me, who can be against?" And honestly, I am not able to do that yet. I wake up in the morning depressed and afraid of facing the day. Afraid of living.
I still have a long way to go, but I've heard the first step to recovery is admitting it. And I believe I'm at least halfway there. :)
XOXO
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