Today I have done rather magnificent job at faking happy. I have fooled the majority of my friends; even some rather close to me. You may read this and think it's sad, but the sad part isn't that I have to fake. Or even that the people I find closest to me don't see past it. The sad part is, I don't want to fake anymore. I don't want to have to put on a smile, force a laugh... I don't want to get up in the morning. I want a friend to do for me what I would do for them... I want someone to come over with two tubs of ice cream, a box of tissues, and just curl up on the couch with me and watch movies that make me cry all day. Not needing to talk, but not needing to keep quiet. Just...needing a friend. It's time for me to put up the mask.
XOXO
You know you can ALWAYS talk to me... throw that mask away.
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